What could have been

Here's an excerpt from a younger sister's longing for his kuya...an essay made by my palangga,Alyanna Desabilla Malabanan on his Kuya PJ's 20th birthday...


PETER JOHN DESABILLA MALABANAN
July 23,1989-July 25, 1989

Twenty years ago, my Brother died. He lived for two days. I never saw him, never talked to him, never played with him, and never met him. I never had a chance to know him. and everyday I always ask myself what could have been. Now I listed down things that he could have done and could have been doing right now.

• He could have studied in Phil. Sci with kuya Ram
• He could have been another support system for Bajjio
• He could have helped Bajjio during his toddler and elementary days
• He could have taught me how to play the guitar, how to sing, and dance
• He could have kick kuya Ram's a**(joke lang )
• He could have faught on Bajjio's side when me and Kuya Ram bullied him.
• He could have been the first Malabanan to graduate Valedictorian
• He could have been there for mama when Daddy worked abroad
• He could have stopped me from going to LB
• He could have helped me with boy stuff
• He could have taught me how to play Basketball and Volleyball
• He could have played DOTA with Bajjio
• He could have been kuya Ram's Kuya
• He could have listened to my problems
• He could have shared his IPod to me
• He could have taught Bajjio Algebra and Geometry
• He could have thought Kuya Ram Chemistry and Kuya would have someone to look up to
• He could have played golf with Daddy
• He could have gone to the highest mountains with mama
• He could have bullied the kids who bullied Bajjio
• He could have jogged with me on weekends
• He could have lend me his baon when I had spent all my money
• He could have lend me all his books so that I could read them
• He'd be studying here at UP Manila here at UP Manila, fourth year, Intramed
• I'd be living with him in a condo or apartment
• He'd be driving me to school with his car
• He'd be fetching me from UPM and drive me back home
• He'd be guiding me during the first days of class
• He'd be partying with me and my friends
• He'd be helping me with my Philo 1 TTD
• He'd be helping me study for the DepEx in Math 11
• He'd be disciplining me with my diet
• He'd wake me up every morning and cook our breakfast
• He'd jog with me on weekends
• He'd teach me how to ride the LRT/MRT
• He'd go to Church with me every Saturday
• He'd lend me his allowance so that I could buy a new pair of shoes
• He'd be playing basketball with me, Bekai, and David on Wednesday mornings
• He'd examine the guys I want and make sure I don’t get hurt
• He'd shop with me and buy groceries with me.

• He'd be my KUYA PJ :))))


I'll see you in heaven Kuya PJ. And let's do all these when I get there. :))